Almost Binge

Last night was the closest I have come to a full blown binge in the 5 weeks that I have been on this healthfulness journey. It was a bit scary, and I am nervous for tonight.

I believe several things led up to my night. First and foremost, I did not eat breakfast yesterday. By the time that I got home from my bike ride I only had an hour before we picked Nate up from school and it would be lunchtime. I figured that I could wait. I did...but really was too hungry to have done that.

Second of all, my lunch was not substantial enough. I had a frozen meal and a few tortilla chips. I should have tried to make that a better meal.

Thirdly, I had not thrown all of the evil Tootsie Rolls away the other day. I dumbly thought that I could "handle" having a few in the house as a treat now and again...obviously I was wrong.

The things that I did correctly last night:
1. Counted every calorie that went in my mouth!

2. Stuck to eating mostly nutritionally sound food (except for those damn Tootsie Rolls).

3. Went to bed before I could do any horrible damage.

I still ended up under my calorie allotment for the day, but only because I had ridden 15 miles in the morning.

I am trying to learn from this little diversion. I didn't exercise today...it is my normal day of rest :) I did have breakfast, and just ate a decent lunch. I am making a chicken for dinner along with squash so that will be a pretty low cal dinner.

And tonight? Well, I am going to make some sugar free, fat free pudding. Plus make sure I eat an apple or other fruit before I go for the "junkier" foods. I also got rid of the last of the candy (not that there was much left after last night). I am hoping that I am setting myself up for success tonight. Last night scared me. And I really don't want to repeat anytime soon.