Square one

Today has been a rough day. I have had two decent days in a row...mood wise, and then I woke up this morning. I woke up just mad at the world!!! Nate woke me up out of a deep deep sleep by hollering across the house for me. When ignoring him didn't work, I went and reprimanded him and went back to my bedroom. However, at that point the dogs and cats were thinking it was time to get up because mommy was up...sigh...so I was up.

And it wasn't even that is was that early...it wasn't. It is just that I am so tired all of the time that when I am in a deep sleep I just don't want to be bothered!

All of that just set the stage for not being very happy today :( I did do about 35 minutes of yoga. It was very difficult. I have lost a lot of stamina and strength in the last 5 1/2 weeks. I had recorded the yoga off of the television and it is actually an hour show, but I could only do about 35 minutes before my muscles were quivering and I was out of breath. Sigh...apparently I am at square one.

The tough part of mono is the fatigue, but my mind plays games. I have got myself doubting the sickness. I figure that I am just tired because I have been so lazy for almost 6 weeks now. How is that for HORRIBLE head games?! I would NEVER in a million years think that about a friend so why do I think it about myself????

Anyway, it was just a really tough day, and I am looking forward to a brand new day tomorrow. Jim works a day shift, and since one of the cars is at the body shop I am driving him to work and then Nate and I will pick him up after work. I will have from 9am to 3pm to myself. Last week that was not a good thing...I am hoping tomorrow will be better.