DEPRESSED!!!!!!

Well...not that anyone is reading this anymore...but mainly I just need to write this for me anyway. I have been sick since March 5. It started on a Friday morning with a tickle in my throat, but I felt fine...I went to spin. After spin, I came home and got Nate ready for school, went to Walmart for groceries, stopped at a couple of other places that I can't remember right now. Got home, showered, and went to get Nate (he has early release on Fridays) and decided to go to Costco for lunch and supplies.

We were driving home about 1pm, and all of a sudden I just wasn't feeling very well. I got really tired and achy. We got home, and I put the stuff away. I felt that I needed to lie down for a bit. About an hour later Nate asked me a question, and when I opened my mouth to answer nothing came out except a croak!!! I had completely lost my voice, and I really felt awful by that point. I took my temperature and it was over 101!!!

The next morning I went to urgent care because my temp had gone over 102 during the night, and I just felt awful. I was diagnosed with a sinus infection and prescribed a z-pack of antibiotics. I was sick the rest of the weekend and my temp kept climbing really high at night. On Monday I called my doctor and they asked me to come in and be seen by them. I did, and they said that I had bronchitis along with the sinus infection...so more antibiotics, steroids, and cough medicine...I thought I would be on the mend.

The next week I had gone through the prescriptions, but was still running a low grade fever so went back to the doctor. I was told that the bronchitis was still going strong..so more steroids. Two weeks later still coughing...still fever...went and saw a different doctor at the clinic and she had them take blood...plus gave me an inhaler to use to hopefully get my lungs back in shape.

The blood test results were called to me the next day...MONO! WHAT?!!!! Mono is for younger people..high school and college age...what the heck?! How did I get it!?

So...there ya have it. I have had the diagnosis for about 2 weeks now...I am still running a fever and have swollen glands...and I have NEVER been so tired in my whole life! I was told 8-10 weeks of this..sigh..that is a long time for a girl that is used to being active 90% of the time. I have exercised 2x in the last 5 weeks...once was a 35 min walk on the treadmill and the other was a 1 mile walk outside...very pathetic.

I am sad, frustrated, exhausted, and all I really want to do is cry and eat at this point. But neither one of those things is going to help me, but I can't seem to change my mind about them either. I HAVE to start journaling again to get my head wrapped around all of this. Because right now I just feel pathetic.