Sunday, December 6, 2009

Distraction from feelings

I found myself unexpectedly home alone last night. Jim was work (normal), but my mom took Nate downtown to the courthouse lighting and to spend the night. Remember I said just a few days ago that I don't like to feel pain (hurt) so I keep myself distracted. Last night after being home alone for about 20 minutes...couldn't handle being alone with my thoughts so put a movie in and ate badly. Sigh....I had been doing pretty well too until last night.

I am trying really hard to not beat myself up about it since that just perpetuates the cycle, but it is difficult to do when I feel bloated and yucky this morning. Today is a new day, right? I will try harder to either feel the feelings that I have or find a better distraction! That is my goal today :)

We are getting our Christmas tree today I think. Nate and I decorated the house with the other "stuff", but the tree had to wait until Jim, Nate, and I could go pick it out together...can't wait! Love the fresh cut tree smell!!!

The only worry that I have is the new kitty in the house. She is CRAZY!!! I am pretty sure that she is going to be the only cat that we have ever had that will put our tree at risk. She is still very young, and the most interesting things entertain her. I am very afraid that an ornament at the top of the tree will catch her fancy. It should be fun!

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